I am a human being, with four letters assigned to his being.
But the name is not who I am.
I am also not my accomplishments.
I am not the money I have.
I am not my ambitions.
I am not who I love or like or dislike.
Who am I?
Am I just the conglomeration of experiences, memories, labels, and ideas in my head?
Or am I the feelings that move through my body like waves in an ocean?
Or am I the ocean? Or am I the sky?
Am I the sunshine, lightning, rain, or thunder?
Am I the pain, suffering, and sadness? Or am I the ecstasy, happiness, and joy?
Or am I the awareness behind it all?
Or the awareness behind the awareness?
Who am I?
To say who I am.
Is to instantly lose who I am.
I am undefinable.
Unable to attach myself to an idea of who I am, I am left with a space.
A space that’s not used to being empty.
Experiences, memories, actions, memories of people - want to fill that space. These phenomena in my being are not content with the space being empty.
There is fear. Who would I be with just that space?
Would I die?
Would I cease to exist?
In the shadows of my inner underworld, I face the deepest shadow that also hides the greatest light imaginable: my fear of not being, my fear of ceasing to exist.
Eckhart Tolle once said that the secret to life: “Is to die before you die and realise that there is no death”.
Am I prepared to die, before dying?
I seem too attached to the avatar in my mind’s eye.
My fears, my desires, and the sense of self I derive through my relationship to phenomena. To completely cut that off…
Would be to no longer be who I believe am.
But to be who I am meant to be, I must let go of who I believe I am — so that I can be the truth that I am.
Have a wonderful week.
Maybe, as mostly in life, it is not OR… OR… but AND… AND…
True that we are all divine beings; whether we are aware of it or not.
True that what our mind thinks we are, we are not.
But isn't the reason why we incarnate as dumb humans, to live fully what can be experienced down here?
That by remaining etherial beings we can't see "the other side", and that we therefore need to forget who we really are?
So what about living fully the joys AND the pains, the light AND the darkness, the longing AND the total satisfaction of pure peace?
What if we acknowledge being AND a simplistic human confused by all its concepts, ideas and (wrong) beliefs AND as well a sacred being imprisoned in a material very restricted body ?
(enough for today)